I don't know if anyone will ever read my blogs but I'm putting them out here to express myself in the only way I know how to. Today, I found myself back in that deep dark hole again and I started to cry. I don't really know how I get in this place but I know when I get there. It's just a hard place in my life and I feel lonely, scared, and lost. I just don't know what to say or what to do any more. I hope to find myself for real this time, but who knows it could take forever to do that but I did see this one picture that said "Life isn't about finding yourself, life is about creating yourself." I read that and was shocked because it changed everything I knew.