"Mistakes are proof that you're trying."

If anyone even gets to read this just know that you are never alone. You may feel like it but you are not. I see all these things on facebook and twitter that say like if you would do anything to change your past. But why would you want to? You wouldn't be YOU if you changed your past. And one more thing before I go continue to live my dull boring life, is your life might not mean something to you but there is someone else in this world that feels the same way as you do right now. So, don't end your life because someone wants you to. If anything you should live to crush there dreams. By the way you are beautiful/ handsome.  I love you with all my heart! <3

Hello, Is Anyone There?

I don't know if anyone will ever read my blogs but I'm putting them out here to express myself in the only way I know how to. Today, I found myself back in that deep dark hole again and I started to cry. I don't really know how I get in this place but I know when I get there. It's just a hard place in my life and I feel lonely, scared, and lost. I just don't know what to say or what to do any more. I hope to find myself for real this time, but who knows it could take forever to do that but I did see this one picture that said "Life isn't about finding yourself, life is about creating yourself." I read that and was shocked because it changed everything I knew.  

I feel.....

       So alone like no one cares enough to see if im ok. I don't know why people can't see my pain and suffering, it's all hidden by one simple thing. A smile, one smile can hide everything bad inside. Sometimes I feel like screaming at people at people just because i'm so hurt and need to get my anger and stress out and surprisingly screaming helps. It helps alot. Crying, that also helps sometimes that's just what a teen needs plus the hormones done help at ALL! I just want someone to know the real me not the one hidden by my smile and laughter. I do that so people wont see the real me, the one that could break down at any moment... I just want someone to see through that and still be able to love me the way I don't love me.

Day 1: My thoughts!!

Well let me start off by saying i'm not a popular person but I don't really want to be popular because i'm not fake, and i'm definitely not okay with making fun of people. You can't help how you look or how you appear to people, your just that way! Don't tell people there fat or ugly because they most likely know that's what you think of them you don't have to be rude and tell them things they don't want to hear from anyone They most likely get emotionally put down at home or have family issues so if you think a thought that doesn't need to be said then don't say any words at all. I'm just saying cause i'm one of those people! Thanks for reading my first thoughts and more to come!!